Thursday, July 30, 2009

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

i've been talking to different people recently.
& well.. it sets me into some thinking.

was chatting w bonster abt my 21st.
seriously i have no idea how its gg to be like, i didnt plan for anything(then).
so no actions were carried out. and yea, its like 18 days away....
i was lectured, and am pissed off. not w him, but more of myself.

seriously quit the habit of not planning & doing last min things.
or to even take it for granted someone will do it for me.
well, at least that was what i thought. i got this thinking that someone will plan my 21st for me, n all i nd to do is to attend the party. LOL! okay, i know.. it a illusion.

rarr, so now i got to rush and tie things down asap.
thankfully, i managed to book a chatlet on my actually day. man, nv expect 15th to be such a popular date.All the chatlets, country clubs were fully booked. zzz really disturbing.

and im coming out with the guest list.
still thinking if i shd seperate my frens into two diff days or lump everyone tgt...
ahh, anyway that aside.
i'll think abt it when i wake up later. HAHA! :D

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XOXO.


p.s - i saw my first ever glowing blue rose today. thanks alvan. (:

Thursday, July 16, 2009

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

best tuesday ever. (:
woke up with slight hangover, and headed down town to meet kan.
He was there doing MRI scan for his wrist.

roamed ard town, had lunch while waiting for his report to be ready.
To kill time, we caught ice age 3. My second time watching that, but i guess i enjoyed it better this time. With no unpleasant disturbance. HA!

wanted to head down to Parkway for dinner before meeting the rest for blading.
sudden craving for katong laksa changed our initial plan.
The first time after months that i finally ate my proper meals on time.



/side track: i tink i really lost quite alot of weight recently. my face, is getting so sharp. or maybe is the angle i used. idk...


anw, meet up with the rest at ecp.
Kan decided to stay for awhile more since he has the time.

Learning the basic.

Master Shifu! thanks for tolerating my screams. i hope i didnt facture ur wrist.

Jolvin was really patience to skate REALLY ( & i mean really) slowly with me. Then Kan was like having road march. i tink he walks faster than i skate. That's how pathetic i was. LOL

But i really had fun. Screaming and laughing.

Lets go blading agn! :D:D:D

Monday, July 13, 2009

Venus and i had the most miserable saturday night ever...

Met up with her after dinner with cell, with the initial plan of heading to Top One.
Only to realise that it was fully booked.
We braved the rain and decided to head down to pasir ris for Sz's bday chatlet for some drinking session.
But is really awkward, we know no body else.

So V and i went thru our phonebook and called almost everyone to see if we could join them.
PATHETIC TO THE MAX.
wanted to club, but our IC wasnt with us. so we dropped the idea of clubbing & pubbing.

then Pon sak asked if we would like to join them for singing at jurong safra, and so we agreed.
so from Downtown East we cabbed down to Boon lay.
Gwad, just imagine the cab fare + mid night charges.
we were bleeding internally as the taxi meter ticks. zzz


so here we are, at jurong safra's kbox.

hearing the guys pouring their hearts behind me amazes me.
man, they can really talk... NON STOP (okays, at least for the last 3 hrs).

"cheng wee"
"cheng wee"
"cheng wee"

almost 1/4 of the conversation revolves around him...

& shane = irritating.
he is whining abt his angel to jason and i.

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im really sleepy now.
but im still over at Z baby's place waiting for them to finish their mahjong game.

Sunday, July 12, 2009

im going for fishing (:

Friday, July 10, 2009

head out to meet gfs after work.
was late and they started l4d w/o me. >:(

shane and his frens were there too.

Afterwhich we went over to top one ktv, since no body wans to go home yet.
okay, Amanda did wans to leave, but for my sake she stayed to accompany for awhile.
Or i'll be left alone with one whole bunch of ppl that i just know.

Tuesday, July 07, 2009

Waking up with hope, but i could only find tears...
My heart turns cold as the wind blows...


I haven been well recently.
Ate less than a meal for 4 days,
puking after puking.
Slept less than 3 hrs a day,
waking up in the morning for work,
bad news after bad news.

The weather these days really reflects my emotions.

I miss the Sun.

so.. im just a damn fucking toy to you.

your actions needed EXPLAINATIONs..
issit so hard just to be truthful?


i wonder, have i finally hit the lowest peak of my life? or there's worst to come..
numbing myself, i'll sleep in toilet tonight..

Sunday, July 05, 2009

I'm disgusted by your actions.

Friday, July 03, 2009

When it hits the lowest peak of everything, it could only get better...

Wednesday, July 01, 2009

Its like Dejavu.
Why do i have to put myself in this situation to go through such disappointment again.
Memories, painful memories.

A stain that i wanted to erase so badly...